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 My name's Adriana. I don't exactly have a nickname. I'm very variable, sensitive , experience one embarassing event every day, and yet surprisingly mature. Heh. I, along with 186 million other girls in the world, suffer from an inferiority complex. For me, I like to see the beauty in things. I like art. But I'm not all obsessed over it. I like the beauty of it. I have this insane fixation that I will meet my soulmate by chance. Guess I'm not a big believer in slow development. I'm in PRCS's Modern Dance, 3/5. Profiles: Facebook | friendster | |
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Friday, February 29, 2008 @ 2/29/2008 08:46:00 PM
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today . was. haiz. i dno. SUPER sleepy . slept in assembly. slept in Lit. slept in Science. planned to sleep while waiting for common test. i'm just very tired. both physically and emotionally. i'm tired of being this person, you know? it's like i'm not ME. not the rebellious me i knew last year. right now i'm the super-take-the-lead-take-the-initiative-nominated-councillor-do-everything-for-everybody-let-people-step-all-over-me-and-just-smile girl. i.... just feel so submissive. i don't wanna suppress myself, but i can't let this person out. coz right now if i do that i'm dead. i'm already messing alot up. i'm just tired. I'M TIRED OF BEING THE EVER-SO-USEFUL PERSON. I'M TIRED OF BEING YOUR FUTURE ROLE MODEL. I'M TIRED OF ACTING SUPER RESPONSIBLE. I'M TIRED OF BEING JUST-TELL-ME-WHAT-NEEDS-TO-BE-DONE-AND-I'LL-DO-IT. I'M TIRED OF BEING THE PERSON WHOM EVERYBODY COMES TO WHEN THEY HAVE PROBLEMS. ALWAYS, ALL MY LIFE. I'VE HAD PEOPLE TELLING ME WHAT TO DO. WHAT TO BE. WHAT I SHOULD CHANGE ABOUT MYSELF. TELLING ME I SHOULD CHANGE MY ATTITUDE. CHANGE MY STYLE. CHANGE MY PERSONALITY. i'm tired. just tell me. tell me. what exactly do you want me to be? I'M NOT LIKE CHAIRMAN. SOMETIMES I THINK HE HAS NO FEELINGS AT ALL. WHICH SOMETIMES MAKES IT NICE TO TALK TO HIM ONCE IN AWHILE. and i said *SOMETIMES*. other times he's the most annoying bug on earth. sorry jo. maybe i'll be this person later. coz right now i need a break. all this pressure, i can't take it. not right now. please, just not right now. i'm already going outta my head with the cheer thingy. AND NO ONE IS LISTENING. BLOODY FUCK. AND ME AND HALIMAH ARE GOING CRAZY . WITH YOU PEOPLE BEING SUCH LYRIC PERFECTIONISTS, WHEN YOU CAN'T EVEN DO THE FUCKING CHEER PROPERLY. plus, i'm supposed to meet Ms Eileen bout the cheer today after CCA. but i forgot. see, it's in my nature to be irresponsible. haiz... forget it. DON'T CALL ME IRRESPONSIBLE LATER ON. BECAUSE REALLY. I CAN'T HELP IT. do forgive me if i have offended you . as this was an emotional outburst, i hope that on account of that, you people will excuse me for my seeminingly somewhat hurtful words. thank you. AND IT'S NADRAH'S BDAE! I LOVE YOU KAK NADRAH! YOU RAWK BABE! |