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 My name's Adriana. I don't exactly have a nickname. I'm very variable, sensitive , experience one embarassing event every day, and yet surprisingly mature. Heh. I, along with 186 million other girls in the world, suffer from an inferiority complex. For me, I like to see the beauty in things. I like art. But I'm not all obsessed over it. I like the beauty of it. I have this insane fixation that I will meet my soulmate by chance. Guess I'm not a big believer in slow development. I'm in PRCS's Modern Dance, 3/5. Profiles: Facebook | friendster | |
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Wednesday, April 23, 2008 @ 4/23/2008 06:57:00 PM
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life has sucked for quite some time now. that's why i haven't blogged for ages. sorry about that. but it really sucks okay? i'm on 3 days MC due to suspect/precaution of HFMD. it's apparently an epidemic. one-six is like, a breeding place for HFMD or smth. sheesh. there's nothing wrong with me! REALLY! =( anyway, i've been really really depressed these days. THEY pangseh me. mum's been nagging and nagging. friends have been asking what's wrong. and why i'm so emo. i'm not emo! i just don't feel like talking because there's so many things in my mind! my mum actually asked me what i thought if we downgraded to a 4 room flat, so that we will have soem money in hand... i wanted a break from them you know. and in less than 2 days they completely pushed me away. you know i said " wahhh. never invite me horhh." and pavithra replied with a " you duwan to follow whattttt." gawd, she's so bitchy sometimes. all of them are. Liyana is like, thinking that i'm extra or vain. and Halimah is totally ignoring me, it's as if she knows i'm there, it's just that she doesn't want to acknowledge that I'm there. Atiqah is treating me the same. deep in my heart i know i don't feel like i belong anymore, and i just want things to go back to normal. it's as if Halimah took my place. i just don't fit with them any longer. they've changed so much... they love going to the toilet and adjusting their hair and everything. and check messages. then they'll all gather and go " Did he reply??, "What did he say?", " Ooh, Atiqah you so cuteee!".. and it's as if their lives revolve around guys, how attractive they look, what they're going to do that afternoon, and other superficial stuff! i can't stand it! but if i do like what actresses do in movies, i'll be a total social outcast! i know i have lots of friends who are there for me, but i just can't bear to impose on them! they've already settled in with their own people, it'll just make me feel like a complete extra. i've always been scared to be alone. i don't know how long i can hang on. god, save me . PLEASEEE. i want a new friend =( special thanks to Sally! & Dorothy and Sibling, and rest of you all! ( Nadia, Maliah, Mel.. etc..) LOVE YOU GUYS!♥ |