Rain on autumn leaves

a lot of things happened today!
during maths, Ding Han went touch my body~
so i said, add in the baby lah.
then he continued " touch my body babyyyy!~ touch my body....!"
sick lah he.

Lit was fun! ( as usual! )
Mr Shafie rawkkkkkkssss!
and i managed to do the worksheet about how to do an essay even though i didn't finish watching the movie!
so proud of myself hahas.
everyone was flipping to look for answers but i only flipped once ^^
went early for recess, as usual.
wanted to sit next to Pavi but Sally wanted to sit there.
and i'm like "finneeeee i have to sit next to Hidayat then."
then Mr Singh asked someone to stand next to the aluminium can bin.
so i dragged Vanessa and stood there.
then she scared to scold people.
so i was like... " OI! that bin not this bin okay!"
and Mr Sing popped up and said " Oh, you doing the watching ?"
see, the only thing making me want to get into the board is the glimpse of gratefulness and appreciation in the teacher's eyes.
Mother toungue was boring, i was too busy doing my Note Book for Councillor thingies.
Syazana was soooo nice, she helped me do my Malay homework!
THANKS LOTS!

after school a big group of us went to Red House.
i got scared and didn't want to go in after what Eleen told us.
Pavithra and Atiqah didn't want to either.
Liyana went to the front gate.
anyway, i don't want to disturb anything.
that's why.

Zach , Zharfan and Johann came also.
they went in, Hafiz say that he waiting for his friend.
in the end he was at Macs.
I don't regret not going.
It's better to be safe than sorry.

then we walked back to school, and i went for Dance.
it was fun, really.
we learned a new dance.
it's to the song Girlfriend.
but it's not sung by Avril Lavigne.
ANYWAY, steps were cool, but hard to do.

after dance, hung around with Tiffany, Atiqah and Li.
then the Ismail go throw ball in my face coz he was doing Volleyball.
bloooodyyyy.
so i took atiqahs water bottle and POURED ( poured mind you, not spray) water on his head.
SERVE HIM RIGHT!

we went up to the 2nd floor, saw Nazri with his CIO and laughed alot.
then we saw Hidayat downstairs.
and i just finished my 2nd jelly drink.
" EH! HIDAYAT! help me throw can?!"
he never say anything just hold out his hand.
so i dropped it. and it landed on the floor.
luckily teacher nvr see .
anyway, THANKS HIDAYAT! smtms i don't understand why he's so nice.
opposite of Ismail.
GO DIE ISMAIL!

today talked to bernice on msn and spilled all. Bernice is nice lah okay.
she so understanding de.
i was crying just now. and i grabbed my pillow to silence my scream.
don't ask.
my life is just heavy right now.
a lot of things running through my head.
i'm a pretty strong person, but i break very easily.
i really really dun like them.
they are such friend hoppers sometimes.
i'm sure they don't think the way I do, but it's true. it's really true.
i feel so left out at times.
i grew up as someone who is alone most of the time. who gets pushed aside and doesn't see why
i should fight to get my spot back.
sometimes i want to be alone, sometimes i feel lonely when i do.
i am a very mixed up and insecure person. many of you probably don't realise it.
and i've actually been crying in class.
advantage of seating in the middle.
i've realised that in the end, the only person that is closest to you is youself.
you can depend on nobody but yourself.
i'm too young to think of all these things, but i only just realized that i am actually very very mature. to think of all these things, about the philosophy of life... i am speechless really.

These days it feels naive to put your faith in hope. To imitate a child,
fall backwards on the snow 'Cause that's when fears will usually lead you blind.
But now I try to under-analyse .Is the rope I walk wearing thin? Is the life I
love caving in? Is the weight on your mind. A heavy black bird caged inside? Say
Whatever will be will be Take The good, the bad Just breathe.