To me, holidays aren't meant for me. They're meant for my mum.
Holidays basically mean 'More time for the kids to help out at home'.
I would pretty much rather be in school, thank you.

Take just now for example. After eating, my mum asked me to send something to my relative.
Then changed to 'clean the table'.
Then suddenly it was 'clean the table', 'i'll wash' and 'angkat baju' all in one sentence.
Obviously I stopped in mid-air and went 'huh?'

So I started cleaning the table and she walked into my room.
Unfortunately my phone was left unattended (like always),
and she stole a peek at my screen.

Obvious reaction : "Kenape satu orang je banyak-banyak? Matair ke?"
Mine : *sprints to room and snatches phone out of view* NO!

Yesterday night, vaccum. Now, clean my own table.

See why I would rather endure long hours of nearly falling asleep and getting scolded everyday for duty? I know I do.

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Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

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I realise i'm a really sensitive and a fragile person actually. Halimah's right, Pavi cries because of loud noises and sometimes randomly, Atiqah cries only in physical pain, Liyana cries because of only two things, family and Sayyid, but me, I cry because of what other people do to me.

Even when I fell last year( still have the scars), they didn't see me cry. Even if it did hurt pretty much, I didn't cry. But I did cry because Zaf teased me (it was a small little tease but I felt so guilty ) , I did cry because I lost my badge, I did cry because of what Shahid said, I did cry because of Qayyum. And I cried thrice today.

Which then again, shows I'm pretty much easily breakable. Haha. One wrong word, one wrong move, wrong intonation, and bam. That's it. Tears.

I guess I am that vulnerable, aren't I? I'm not that forgiving either.
Because I rarely let people in, that's why.
Each mistake, each gate to my heart closes.

I don't trust people easily.

I don't need you to push me away,
All I need is for you to hold me tight and say,
"I'll never leave you when your heart is in a disarray,
Or when your skies are turning grey,
For my heart is yours,
And I'm here to stay".