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 adriana a. © 2009 There's not a good poet I know who has not at the beck and call of his memory a vast quantity of poetry that composes his mental library. -Anthony Hecht |
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 My name's Adriana. I don't exactly have a nickname. I'm very variable, sensitive , experience one embarassing event every day, and yet surprisingly mature. Heh. I, along with 186 million other girls in the world, suffer from an inferiority complex. For me, I like to see the beauty in things. I like art. But I'm not all obsessed over it. I like the beauty of it. I have this insane fixation that I will meet my soulmate by chance. Guess I'm not a big believer in slow development. I'm in PRCS's Modern Dance, 3/5. Profiles: Facebook | friendster | |
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Wednesday, November 11, 2009 @ 11/11/2009 07:08:00 PM
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I feel like i'm at my lowest point. I feel like I'm going to break into a million pieces right here right now. And I wouldn't mind. Expectations. I just can't fulfill them. I just can't be what you want me to be. I don't even know what I want to be. Your sister took 10 subjects. The other took 8 subjects. And still can score As for O Level. Your sister. Your sister. Your sister. I just have to shut up and just take it. Just shut up Adriana. Just shut up and it'll all be okay. A-okay. Just shut up and wait. Shut up shut up shut up. ---------- for all you kpos, i'm in 3/5. throwing away all my wksheets. recycling them. what's the point of wksheets? they aid you for a year, then you throw them away. what's the point of studying? for furthering our potential. for survival. for economy. what's wrong with 3/5? Halimah said doesn't mean you don't get amaths or pure sci means you're stupid. In the eyes of others IT DOES. Then why do you care so much abt what ppl think? Uh, hello. Those people are your employers. They are your parents. They are your community. They are the people you will live with for the rest of your pathetic materialistic life. I'm never good enough for you. I'm never good enough for anybody. ------------- Found this while sorting out papers: Here I am, staring at blank paper. Wondering, if you're worth my tear. Anyone would agree, i'm at the losing end, waiting for you, available, willing, at your dispense. I'd take a deep breath, stand by my pride, but you're my favourite tune, these feelings I cannot hide. I could get someone else, to feed my heart, but i'm afraid, i'll lose out if we part. You treat me like a game, making me wait, calling your name. You put me on hold, waiting in queue. Truth betold, I'm quite fed up with you. Now I'm staring, at a paper once blank. Now filled, to my heart's content. I rip it up to a million pieces, as I stare at it once again. Coz you left me feeling so listless, these things my mind refuse to comprehend. Labels: i'm just a disappointment |